Thursday, July 16, 2009

I Won't Complain

I could write all about the lyrics to this old church hymn, and how it tugs at my heart every time I hear it, but I believe the actual lyrics tell it all.

I've had some good days
I've had some hills to climb
I've had some weary days
And some sleepless nights

But when I look around
And I think things over
All of my good days
Outweigh my bad days
I won't complain

Sometimes the clouds are low
I can hardly see the road
I ask a question, Lord
Lord, why so much pain?
But he knows what's best for me
Although my weary eyes
They can't see
So I'll just say thank you Lord
I won't complain

The Lord Has been so good to me
He's been good to me
More than this old world or you could ever be
He's been so good to me

He dried all of my tears away
Turned my midnights into day
So I'll just say thank you Lord
I won't complain.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

My Unexpected Wow Moment from God

I was watching an interview on youtube with Lalah Hathaway last night and she sang a snippet of a song. Now at that time, I didn't know the name of it because I had never heard it. I didn't even hear the song in its entirety, so like the music lover I am, I went searching for it. Unfortunately, I couldn't find it, so I went on to bed. Now fast forward to this morning, I wake up with the stresses of my life heavy on my shoulders, I mean really heavy. I was an emotional mess, starting crying, began praying, and cried some more. I wasn't feelin my best at all. Some of the things I remember saying to God were, "the reason I write is because I know how it feels to feel lost, confused, and alone, and wanted other people to know they aren't alone." I also remember saying, "I pray that people can feel God's comfort through my words, and how even with writing the type of things I write, sometimes I can't." I was borderline hysterical. You know, that hysteria when you feel God has stopped everything when it comes to you and your life, yeah that kind. So I decided i'd listen to some music to calm me down. Came to imeem typed in Lalah Hathaway's name and saw a song, didn't recognize it by name, but something told me to just click on it. I hesitated, but then again, "something" said "click on it". So I did, and as I listened to the lyrics I realized that it was the song I was lookin for in the first place, but not only that, the lyrics blew me away because I immediately recognized this .....God was giving me the answers to my questions and cries this morning through this song's lyrics this morning. What stuck out to me was this..."With all that's going on around me I just don't know why or how my heart remembers to keep on lookin toward the sky....". Its true, cause through everything, even in my anger and fear, I still continue to look to the hills from where my help comes from. I shared this experience with a friend, and her comments were, "God always has a way to get to us no matter what." She is absolutely correct, and I am a witness today. Amazing.